Dr. appt 3/26/09

Hi there wonderful family, friends and loyal followers!!

I have alot on my mind that I have no clue how to make sense of all that i want to write so I hope that once I type this and proof read it that I will make some kinda sense in it all!!

As most of you know that yesterday was a big day at the Dr.'s office for us. We were there about 3 hours with couple of different rooms and waiting periods in between. And let me tell you that office had some entertainers in the waiting room area!! Lord have mercy on those boys that were up there with their sister or friend that was pregnant.. I believe that they should have stayed in the car but they gave us all a great laugh trying to video tape everything that was going on...

Anyways on to our appt... We get there early and on the way there I was nervous but at peace. sat in the waiting room praying and just peace came over my nervousness.. Yes my palms were still sweating and all but I had a peace.. and I know that kinda of peace is only from God..

So we get back to the room and they start doing all the measurements for Dr. Fortunado.. He was busy as always so they sent me back out to the waiting room for him to have time to review it.. Then after about 30 minutes they call me back to another room and continue measuring the cervix and uterus and they did this all in 3d and 4d at this point and 2d.. And as they were in there was still about 5 to 6 cm of Septum left in my uterus which keep in mind I have already had 2 surgeries to break that wall down and my cervix is so wide and dialated.. And i knew once he was in there looking at it. And I saw his facial expressions and let me tell you my bluntness came on out.. I said can it be done and he said out of all the cases that has been unsuccessful it is the bicorniate utuerus. Which is what I originally have even still after all the surgeries cause the septum tissue ins comiing back togetheror they just can not get it all. He said with my cervix so wide there is a chance that I could still go into preterm labor and the abdominal cerclage would not hold the baby and membranes in there. NO GURANTEES!!! so I said "say that I take the chance"... He said you would be looking at multiple visits a week and in the hospital 6 to 7 months of your pregnancy if not the whole time if you make it to 40 weeks. And I just said then IS this really Worth it.. HE said I can not promise you anything and that will have to be your decision..... DON'T WE LOVE DECISION MAKING AND BEING A GROWN UP?!?!?!? In the mean time he said that he was going to get with my doctors one more time and tell them what he saw and how he would not know till he got in surgery if the transabdominal cerclage would even work.. I said you do that and I would like to know their input and I said in the meantime I will be praying and he said you need to do alot of it.. And I know deep down that sruck something in me that I just know that there is decisions that have to be made...

So on April 15th I will be going to my reg OB/GYN Dr Moss to see about getting my tubes tied. Please pray for us as this news is not what we wanted to hear but we know that God has a BIG plan in it all and he can work miracles!!!

We are also already talking about adoption and a puppy in the meantime since adoption processes take forever..
I thank you all for your support, love, and time of listening to us throughout all of this...
I will be keeping you updated on our lives as we staart a whole new journey in life... God Bless You and I pray that you all have a blessed weekend!!

Updates Coming Soon!!

I have not been home much and on the go quiet a bit.... I figured I would have a lengthy update for you later on this week after my Thursday appointment.. Please pray for me as my nerves are uneasy but I also have a peace within.

Also we have got upto 132 items to donate so far with less then 2 weeks left for collecting this yr.. Please check out Samuel's Legacy site at: http://www.sosdrive.blogspot.com

I want to thank you all for your support and prayers as Thursday I know will be some final answers of which journey we will embark on next.. God bless you all..

Please pray for Bentley!!

Please Pray for Bentley and check this site out of how they are helping and giving back!!

Please pray for Bentley!!

Please Pray for Bentley and check this site out of how they are helping and giving back!!