Thursday, January 1, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEARS 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!

SO IT IS OFFICIALLY 2009!!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!!

So As I sit here tonight I think about what has happened in our lives up until now.

Brad is playing his games and I just finished cleaning some of the house and thought I needed to stop and reflect. You see Brad's mom and Stepdad is coming in tomorrow. And I am a person that has to make sure everything is a perfect as it can be. So I just changed the sheets on the guest bed and scrubed the guest shower and bathroom. Brad changed the sheets on our bed. Andwe both decided to stop for a moment and take a break. You see I have struggled with Brad's side of the family since I left him a couple of months ago. So I am extremely nervous. It is just they don't have the same beliefs as I do and that is a whole nother story. So I had to get on here to vent.

Sorry if I jump around a bit it is just I am in a flood of nervousness and just curios if Brad and I are going to make it. You See..
We made a promise at midnight that we would would make every effort to make 2009 better than 2008. With all that we've been through alot of people don't see why we are still together. But we are making every effort to keep it together. God knows more than we do. And we are going to work on all that we can together, for each other, and for one another... Marriage is hard but every since we lost Samuel or I mean Jesus took him home: Brad and I have not been the same even the week before we weren't the same. Please pray that God will work a miracle in our lives and relationship as this new year begins. We will be married one year January 12th.. It is exciting but seems unreal.. As I sit here and right this so much is going through my brain and as he blows up people on his games it is making me jump and get off track.. So once again I am Jumpin around.

I have learned that Brad gets his inner stresses out by playing his games on the PS3 or the XBOX. I am learning I do better in my life by journaling or talking it out. I tend to be like a pressure cooker at least that is what I have been told. So whether I journal on here or in a notebook I know that I need to do this to help in not taking my stresses out on him as well as him having his time with his games for his stresses so that it is not takin out on me.

I have agreed once again to do what I know to do to make this work and he is to. And I told him and he accepts that is he or I get to where we can not take anymore than we are going to separate. I know that God doesn't like divorce but God also does not want us to be unhappy , bitter, and abusive towards one another.

So I encourage you that if you are not married yet make sure that you have the same beliefs and ain't marrying unequally yoked. Because trust me Brad is very challenging when it comes to going to church or wacthing certain shows on TV. We have alot of disagreements when it comes to this area.

Well, I best start winding this up for now cause I have jumped around enough and there is still quiet a bit to do before the inlaws get here... God Bless YOU all.


HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!