Random Thoughts... Can't Sleep Mode...

Hi there....

I am sitting here in the bed and can't sleep and I need to be up in like 7 hours if that... We have a very busy day ahead of us.. We have my lil cousin's 1st birthday party and my other cousin's baby tea... Then If I am up to it which I am not sure I am possibly going to my sister n law's MAW MAW'S memorial service.. Not sure about that one but you have to understand after 2 of huge events my emotions are probably going to be through the roof..

I went a couple of weeks ago to my first baby shower since losing Samuel.. I never got to have a shower/ tea for him and was so looking forward to that.. It is an adjustment for me and I believe for Brad also to have participated in anything.. Now we are venturing out.. It is going to be neat to go to Houston's 1st Birthday tomorrow. Since He was born just a lil over a month from Samuel.. It will be good and bittersweet I am sure...

So I don't know I am so tired but can not sleep.. So I thought if I could get all of my racing thoughts out and listen to some Praise and Worship music maybe then I will be ready to hop on into a deep sleep..

I don't know if I told you.. But we have found more lil' outfits and I have been meaning to post some pictures but just have not gotten to it.. Please know you can start following that side of thing at www.sosdrive.blogspot.com
We will start posting more there after Samuel's 1st birthday celebration. I want to thank everyone for continuing to pray and give to the us in this effort.. May God bless you back 10 fold...

I have been dreaming crazy stuff lately and usually my dreams come true but these are totally off the wall or from outer space. So pray that these dreams get in check.. I went through this sometime ago and I guess I am going to have to do devotions right before I lay my head down.. Isn't God's word a great Manual for our lives?!?!?!?! His word helps me our alot. I really know I would not be here today if it was not for HIM and HIM alone.. He picked me out of a messy messy life and said come unto me... Read Matthew 11:28... And granted it was one of the hardest things in my life I had to do but I know now that everything happens for a reason.. I grew up in church and went ot a private Christian High School but it only was memorize verses in my head nothing got into my heart till I went to Teen Challenge in 2005.. I was in Teen Challenge seemed like at the time the longest 22 months of my life but I know if I would not have went through that discipline and life changing experience I would not have been able to go through everything that I have been through with Brad since 2007.. We know that God is the ONE and ONLY that can bring change and wholeness if we allow HIM.. Thank YOU Brad for hanging in their with me through it all...

Marriage is hard and difficult and losing a child on top of it is like putting the icing on the cake but not sweet icing bitter icing.... We have our moments still but we push through it.. The enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy.. Our Lord and Savior has came to give us life and it abundantly.. Sorry I would give you references to this but I am listening to Praise and worship music and God is cleaning me out right now... Sorry if I jump around..LOL:)

Sometimes I wander what would life be like without Jesus?!?!?!? and I tell you I thought I had HIM in my life before but not like I have the last few years.. There is a difference in having Him in your life as a convience and having HIM apart of your life as a personal relationship.. Like Just now when I just thought I lost every bit of today's blog and I found it I was asking for HIS help and then Thanking HIM... It is AWESOME how HE is always there for us but we take it for granted...

Well, I am about to read the WORD and try to go to sleep..

May You each that read this have a blessed weekend...

Delight thyself in the Lord and HE will give you the desires of thy heart.
Psalm 37:4

Just a little of what I have been up to the last 24 hours...

Okay I really hope that you can see the above pictures...lol.. Half the time I am wingin what i am doing on here.. It is me Tiffany.. Like all the other times...lol..

Last Night I cleaned and straightened up our house.. And I made up a SAM'S Club list as the Head of the HOUSEHOLD told me to do... Brad that is.. So we went to Sam's today and that is the result of me organizing our Pantry and overflow in the Garage!!! I Can thank me days at Teen Challenge for this one.. Our freezer is packed as well with meat.. We decided to get what we need first with our tax return and then maybe get one or two things that we want then the rest to pay off Samuel's and my medical bills.. Which really I don't see that coming to an end anytime soon. We have took out a loan and we are thinking that is not even going to be enough... So we wanted to make sure we had enough food for a while and that we can make it last as long as possible... God is so good isn't HE...

If I have not told yall.. We are having Christmas at our house this year with my mom's side of the family...So I am working on making it as Creative as possible so I am making homemade gifts and activities for us to do and do together.. I am excited that it is our turn but nervous all at the same time.. i am glad I have had over a year to plan.. SO we have got alot of good deals on activities to do with the kiddos..

Well... I also went to a few local businesses to see if they will be willing to help with Samuel's Birthday Celebration and they are hoping that district will let some of the businesses help out... God is so faithful and I know that the right amount of items will come in just in time and just enough for what the NICU needs..

Well, If you have Facebook you should be my friend me as is Tiffany Thompson Snyder is how I am listed.. I love Facebook and gathering and meeting people from my past as well as new people..

Well I am rambling on and on and on.. So I best go for now..

Please continue to pray for baby KAYLEIGH and PETER... God Bless..

Please pray and follow this precious family....

Just Another Update!!!!

howdy yall!!!

How are you today? We are doin' well... Just hanging out... Brad working and me hanging out at the house... Typical day and week....

Maw Maw has passed way.. my sister-n-law' s grandmother and my neices great grandmother.. This happened Saturday Night but just found out yesterday. There will be a memorial service scheduled some point in time but they have donated her body to science research.. So please continue for this family and for the grieving and healing time.

We wanted to update you that we will be going back to Maternal Fetal Group on March 12th in Murfreesboro.. Please pray that the wisdom is there for these Doctors as my situation is not normal which that is what they all say.. They want complete measurements for my set up before they make any decisions on which direction to take..

We are also walking in the March For Babies in Murfreesboro on April 26th..

We have alot of things taking place over the next few months and it is exciting to stay busy..

Please continue to pray for the NICU STAFF AND DOCTORS..

May God Bless You throughout this week...