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Friday, March 13, 2009
Dr. Appt. 3/12/09
Hello....
I really am going to try not to make a pitty party out of this but the appointment yesterday was not very good, positive, or conviencing. I feel like once again I am on a verge of just another broken dream. We all know that God is in miracle working business and he also knows our best interest as well. It seems like when you are down sometimes you get way down before we either ask for help or he picks us up.. I am starting to gather that God must really think we are really strong all of us to endure some of the things that we do..
So about the appointment..
We arrive a lil early and Dr. Fortunado is one busy Dr. but so thorough and awesome.. The Nurse goes ahead and does the out ab ultrasound and then the inter vag ultrasound to gather ALL the measurements needed.. He came in there and looked over ALL the measurements and then he want to do gyno exam.. For thosse of you joining.. (I have been thru 2 surgeries to Correct my bicorninate uterus and I also had a Vaginal septum as well that had to be taken down So I actually have 2 cervix as well a right and left. The left goes to my almost normal uterus now and my right goes to nothing it is just hanging out there.. Tissue that has a dead end and goes NOWHERE.) So while he was doing the pelvic exam to look at it.. He said Your right one is the one that goes nowhere correct?!??!?!? I said Yes Sir.. He said that is too bad cause that is perfect side to use for a vaginal cerclage.. And I knew then that things were not looking good.. I gathered my composure and I said while what about my left side?!?!?! He said well it is still very wide and dialated and there is just no way the we could do a vaginal cerclage.. I said well what about there other the transabdominal cerclage is that even a option and he said I am not sure lets try the other ultrasound machince next door of course it did not give him anymore hope and he looked one more time.. It was awful to be poked that much and they kept on apologizing but i was like I am willing to do what ever it takes and I want this to work or I want to know if it isn't.. He was puzzeled and said we some women we are able to do transabdominal at 18 weeks pregnant and I looked at him and I asked would I even make it that far till I could have that procedure and he said and then just said that I want a 3D visit in room in Nashville cause Murfreesboro did not have the 3D machine... And he said I want to get one more look and in the mean time I am going to get your surgery records in complete detail and Dr. Moss' opinion as well.. I said Yes sir.. I trust you all with all I have and I am not going to take the chance of getting pregnant and misccarrying.. I rather just have everything taken out then do that to myself again or my family... I go to Nashville On the 26th for the 3D ultrasound.. PLEASE PRAY FOR US..
So needless to say I have cried and screamed and asked God once again and I am so glad that Brad is supportive and my mom was there and all my family is praying.. I just am thinking of that Garth Brooks song right now as I type this is SOME OF GOD'S GREATEST GIFTS ARE UNANSWERED PRAYERS...
As bad as I have had baby fever lately and so anxious to hope to try again maybe God has a whole nother way for us to fullfill our parenting dream such as adopting.. Who knows?!?!?! He obviously has the best for our hearts and lives He is our creator but it is still a hard pill to swallow right now..
Pray for my sanity..
Thanks so much and I will be putting more donation pics up soon.. We have had alot donated this week.. Thank YOU Jesus!!
I pray that you all have a blessed weekend... Thanks for your prayers and support!!
I really am going to try not to make a pitty party out of this but the appointment yesterday was not very good, positive, or conviencing. I feel like once again I am on a verge of just another broken dream. We all know that God is in miracle working business and he also knows our best interest as well. It seems like when you are down sometimes you get way down before we either ask for help or he picks us up.. I am starting to gather that God must really think we are really strong all of us to endure some of the things that we do..
So about the appointment..
We arrive a lil early and Dr. Fortunado is one busy Dr. but so thorough and awesome.. The Nurse goes ahead and does the out ab ultrasound and then the inter vag ultrasound to gather ALL the measurements needed.. He came in there and looked over ALL the measurements and then he want to do gyno exam.. For thosse of you joining.. (I have been thru 2 surgeries to Correct my bicorninate uterus and I also had a Vaginal septum as well that had to be taken down So I actually have 2 cervix as well a right and left. The left goes to my almost normal uterus now and my right goes to nothing it is just hanging out there.. Tissue that has a dead end and goes NOWHERE.) So while he was doing the pelvic exam to look at it.. He said Your right one is the one that goes nowhere correct?!??!?!? I said Yes Sir.. He said that is too bad cause that is perfect side to use for a vaginal cerclage.. And I knew then that things were not looking good.. I gathered my composure and I said while what about my left side?!?!?! He said well it is still very wide and dialated and there is just no way the we could do a vaginal cerclage.. I said well what about there other the transabdominal cerclage is that even a option and he said I am not sure lets try the other ultrasound machince next door of course it did not give him anymore hope and he looked one more time.. It was awful to be poked that much and they kept on apologizing but i was like I am willing to do what ever it takes and I want this to work or I want to know if it isn't.. He was puzzeled and said we some women we are able to do transabdominal at 18 weeks pregnant and I looked at him and I asked would I even make it that far till I could have that procedure and he said and then just said that I want a 3D visit in room in Nashville cause Murfreesboro did not have the 3D machine... And he said I want to get one more look and in the mean time I am going to get your surgery records in complete detail and Dr. Moss' opinion as well.. I said Yes sir.. I trust you all with all I have and I am not going to take the chance of getting pregnant and misccarrying.. I rather just have everything taken out then do that to myself again or my family... I go to Nashville On the 26th for the 3D ultrasound.. PLEASE PRAY FOR US..
So needless to say I have cried and screamed and asked God once again and I am so glad that Brad is supportive and my mom was there and all my family is praying.. I just am thinking of that Garth Brooks song right now as I type this is SOME OF GOD'S GREATEST GIFTS ARE UNANSWERED PRAYERS...
As bad as I have had baby fever lately and so anxious to hope to try again maybe God has a whole nother way for us to fullfill our parenting dream such as adopting.. Who knows?!?!?! He obviously has the best for our hearts and lives He is our creator but it is still a hard pill to swallow right now..
Pray for my sanity..
Thanks so much and I will be putting more donation pics up soon.. We have had alot donated this week.. Thank YOU Jesus!!
I pray that you all have a blessed weekend... Thanks for your prayers and support!!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
So.....
Okay.. We have our new modem in and thank GOD...
Today is one of the most nerve racking days for me.. In a lil over 4 hours I will be at the specialist at MFG to see the measurements of my cervix and uterus since my surgeries.. Please pray.. I have not been this nervous since going in Early labor and delivery with Samuel.. I have prayed and been sick on my stomach cause that is how my nerves react.. Brad even prayed with me and that is far and very few in between times... I believe that he maybe nervous too..
Whatever the results is whether..1) Major surgery= Transabdonimal Cerclage
2) Wait until I am pregnant and cerclage after 12 weeks (but we have a problem already with this cause I am still dialated quiet a bit a year later almost)
3) Get told it is too risky period.. Which that would definitely be a hard pill to swallow b/c I want another baby and have another experience and a good experience.. not gine birth and lose the child and bury within 2 weeks of all of it.. but I know adoption is out there.
I don't know God will give me peace once I know more today but it is awful before you know.. I used to get my hopes up so high on things in life that when everything happened with Samuel that I have gone a whole nother extreme.. I feeel like I should expect for the worst and hope for the best.. I don't know..
I am just jumping all over the place but I tell you this is nerve racking!!!!
I do want to ask yall to pray for this day to go well and for me to recognize God once again through it all.
Prayer Requests:
-Today's Appointment
-my Friend Laura she is 28 weeks today and doing great PRAISE GOD.. On Bed Rest but doing FANTASTIC!!! Her other two children ( which her son J.D. Was Samuel's neighbor so I am partial to this whole family)and her sisters baby came at 28 weeks and so she as well as all of us are praying for her to go futher than ever before and I hope she goes FULL Term.. It is a Boy and his name is Conner.
- Also my friend Mollie is pregnant as well and her twins came early at 21 and 23 weeks last year.. Aubrey did not make it and Daxton is a fighter... Daxton was in the same unit as Samuel as well. Mollie is pregnant with a baby boy Tyler and I ask that you pray for her to go alot futher and possibly to full term is what we are hoping and praying for.. She is I believe on 18 or 19 week..
-6 month old baby Lily and JJ which is in 8th grade with pnuemonia.Boht in very Critical Care.
Please continue to lift up all the sick baby and chldren in this world.. us mommy's and daddy's don't like and it is hard to bear..
Well that is all for now.. I am sure I will be back on to update you with the latest.... Have a fabulous DAY!!
Today is one of the most nerve racking days for me.. In a lil over 4 hours I will be at the specialist at MFG to see the measurements of my cervix and uterus since my surgeries.. Please pray.. I have not been this nervous since going in Early labor and delivery with Samuel.. I have prayed and been sick on my stomach cause that is how my nerves react.. Brad even prayed with me and that is far and very few in between times... I believe that he maybe nervous too..
Whatever the results is whether..1) Major surgery= Transabdonimal Cerclage
2) Wait until I am pregnant and cerclage after 12 weeks (but we have a problem already with this cause I am still dialated quiet a bit a year later almost)
3) Get told it is too risky period.. Which that would definitely be a hard pill to swallow b/c I want another baby and have another experience and a good experience.. not gine birth and lose the child and bury within 2 weeks of all of it.. but I know adoption is out there.
I don't know God will give me peace once I know more today but it is awful before you know.. I used to get my hopes up so high on things in life that when everything happened with Samuel that I have gone a whole nother extreme.. I feeel like I should expect for the worst and hope for the best.. I don't know..
I am just jumping all over the place but I tell you this is nerve racking!!!!
I do want to ask yall to pray for this day to go well and for me to recognize God once again through it all.
Prayer Requests:
-Today's Appointment
-my Friend Laura she is 28 weeks today and doing great PRAISE GOD.. On Bed Rest but doing FANTASTIC!!! Her other two children ( which her son J.D. Was Samuel's neighbor so I am partial to this whole family)and her sisters baby came at 28 weeks and so she as well as all of us are praying for her to go futher than ever before and I hope she goes FULL Term.. It is a Boy and his name is Conner.
- Also my friend Mollie is pregnant as well and her twins came early at 21 and 23 weeks last year.. Aubrey did not make it and Daxton is a fighter... Daxton was in the same unit as Samuel as well. Mollie is pregnant with a baby boy Tyler and I ask that you pray for her to go alot futher and possibly to full term is what we are hoping and praying for.. She is I believe on 18 or 19 week..
-6 month old baby Lily and JJ which is in 8th grade with pnuemonia.Boht in very Critical Care.
Please continue to lift up all the sick baby and chldren in this world.. us mommy's and daddy's don't like and it is hard to bear..
Well that is all for now.. I am sure I will be back on to update you with the latest.... Have a fabulous DAY!!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Hello....
Sorry... I really don't know how long my internet is going to last right now..
I pray that all is well with you..
We are still have internet issues.. I pray to address the issue this afternoon..
We are one month away from when Samuel would be celebrating his 1st birthday. I thank God that he is giving me friends, family and new people in my life to pray for me as I am really struggling but have a peace.. Not sure how those 2 go together but the do.. God is so good.. Please keep in mind that we are still celebrating his birthday in a unique way.. Please check out the blog at...
www.sosdrive.blogspot.com
Thanks and God Bless YOU all..
I pray that all is well with you..
We are still have internet issues.. I pray to address the issue this afternoon..
We are one month away from when Samuel would be celebrating his 1st birthday. I thank God that he is giving me friends, family and new people in my life to pray for me as I am really struggling but have a peace.. Not sure how those 2 go together but the do.. God is so good.. Please keep in mind that we are still celebrating his birthday in a unique way.. Please check out the blog at...
www.sosdrive.blogspot.com
Thanks and God Bless YOU all..
Sunday, March 8, 2009
SORRY Technical Difficulties...
Today is March 7th, 2009....
We are without internet service we do not know why we are without it
but this is the second modem that AT&T has sent us and it has failed us
once again.. I am really hoping to start to work from home once our
new computer comes in.. Don't know who I will be working for but I
know I will not be held as a reliable worker if these dern modems keep
on failing.. I hate it.. And so does Brad cause he likes to play his PS3 and
XBOX online gaming.. So tonight as we are with out internet and we
have been watching AUSTRAILIA. It is undoubtly a wonderful movie.
Today it was 70+ degrees out and absolutely beautiful. We had our
windows open, did laundry, finished up some Bar-B-Q, and we
worked outside a bit.. It was wonderful to spend sometime together
just Brad and I..
God is so good in so many ways!!!
I am typing this on the notepad until I am able to copy and paste it
to our bloggin' area. I pray that you all are having a blessed weekend.
Please continue to pray for Jacob's Family.. As they had the memorial
service today.
We are doing well this way and always keep your eyes on JESUS... God
bless each of you!!
For a moment I am able to get on and post this.. But now you know why we are not able to post if we don't for a while... Smile and be blessed this next week!!
We are without internet service we do not know why we are without it
but this is the second modem that AT&T has sent us and it has failed us
once again.. I am really hoping to start to work from home once our
new computer comes in.. Don't know who I will be working for but I
know I will not be held as a reliable worker if these dern modems keep
on failing.. I hate it.. And so does Brad cause he likes to play his PS3 and
XBOX online gaming.. So tonight as we are with out internet and we
have been watching AUSTRAILIA. It is undoubtly a wonderful movie.
Today it was 70+ degrees out and absolutely beautiful. We had our
windows open, did laundry, finished up some Bar-B-Q, and we
worked outside a bit.. It was wonderful to spend sometime together
just Brad and I..
God is so good in so many ways!!!
I am typing this on the notepad until I am able to copy and paste it
to our bloggin' area. I pray that you all are having a blessed weekend.
Please continue to pray for Jacob's Family.. As they had the memorial
service today.
We are doing well this way and always keep your eyes on JESUS... God
bless each of you!!
For a moment I am able to get on and post this.. But now you know why we are not able to post if we don't for a while... Smile and be blessed this next week!!
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